and life goes on and on... for the better?

happy halloween!!

2006-10-29T01:31:00.000-08:00

ay!
i went to zouk!!cant believe it rite??
yea but i did!!!
though quite hesitant about everything going on...
it was quite alright.. cuz i felt that most of the people there were nice and friendly...

ha, everyone we approached to take pic with us were cool about it..
like the green witch and the sexy vampire..
haha..
hmmm.. is that bout all?????

haha
i cant remember liao..
drank too much la!
stupid crs fault!
and nic also..
and who else??
yt or sc ?!?
only nic's fren was the nicest.. nv ask me to drink.

the halloween party was erm..quite an eye opener..
as well as being in zouk itself..
actually, it's not a really huge place..
not much space to sit..
but we juz took the reserved table anyway and the jungle man came to serve us! (i tot he was gonna chase us away)

din expect soooo many ppl to dress up..
free admission ba..

wah lao.. as in u wan cheap costume..
juz get a witch hat.. wear some black clothes, do some make up to look more horrific and ur in for free!!
even better... plain old lousy cheap white cloth. drape it over ur head and ur a spooky ghost which saves 25 bucks.

we entered the place at 9 (the opening time)
it only started to get crowded around 11 and songs were blasting and people.. or rather.. creatures and monsters in the dance floor er... u think they're dancing???
well.. prob only some of them shake shake shaking..
but most of the people were juz crowding around the dance floor..

man, den 1130 we had to leave le..
yt's parents were here.. sc had to be home b4 midnight..
hmm but she wasn't cinderella leh...

when we got out.. WOAH..
the queues were like S-T-R-E-T-C-H-E-D.. till far far away
totally crazy...

haiya! when i got home my mum was like..
"i was expecting u to come back like at 1?"
den i was !! im actually allowed to do that?!?!
man! i should have stayed.. maybe will get higher..
budden i also dunno how to go back..
the transport "taxi" nv appeared in my mind..dunno how long nv take cab le..

happy halloween!!

2006-10-29T01:16:00.000-08:00

there were a few classic "humans" and happenings..
1 was some guy lifting the chun li's skirt to reveal her tiny black tights..
i was shocked..
nvm..
2 was a girl in chongsum and told her fren she met in the toilet that she tucked her skirt in her underwear.. so it's like freaking short now..
3- the besT! some man in this angmoh gown..
erm.. with curly blond wig, suppose to be a corset and large puffy skirt..
that kinda olden english dress..
and he was playing with his boobs!!!!
omg la!
we were like laughing at his actions!! den he also stick out his leg in a seductive manner..
GROSS...
but hilarious!

man i wanna go halloween party again!~!!
next time muz go find cheap cheap costume..
think it's really fun..
wearing a scary mask, going around trying to scare all the strangers around u..
ahah and they wouldnt noe who u are!!!! ahahahaha

2006-10-12T08:37:00.000-07:00

if u think using food will get me out...

U R WRONG!

if all u can do is provide food then go on and waste all the food u can..
i WONT EAT ANYMORE!

i'd rather starve..
i WANT TO OK...

if u can't care..
then my bad..
i'm juz so FREAKING unLuCky to be born into this world like that..

WAD CAN U DO?
WAD CAN ANYONE DO?
CAN DOCTORS EVEN HELP?

NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

America's Got Talent!!!

2006-10-03T10:44:00.000-07:00

OMG!!!
i uploaded the coolest and most talented people video on my photoblog...

GET STUNNED AND BE AMAZED!!!!

i need meaning..

2006-09-28T00:50:00.000-07:00

god, help me find meaning in what i do!!!!!!!

i know i need to do the A levels..
and i told myself to work hard already...

but everytime when i need to start working seriously, i can't even get off my butt and start cramming my brain with anything i'm suppose to know or remember!!!

America teens are so fortunate that drop out rates are like high! 75%?
so almost everyone is the same?

and singapore's case is probably like 0.001% only la..
and i'll be condemn...

=(

ietating!!!

2006-09-27T12:45:00.000-07:00

somebody's pissing me off!!!
i'm itated!!!!

y u so lidat ah, y u so lidat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

>.<

deathnote ending...

2006-09-25T01:12:00.000-07:00

chapter 108 [end]
i cannot uds the ending ending...

as in raito aka light aka kira died that ending was quite alrite la...
i kinda liked it.. haha
glad that light DIED pathatically..
haha.. xa hates the ending.. she wanted kira to rule..
oh, look on the bright side, ryuk was so evil wad!! kill raito...
ahahah...

ok that ending i can accept...
but how bout the end of the end?!???
after light died, the final chapter which is 108,
they began with 1 yr later..
and N has succeed L..
and they are having meeting to solve cases which the police cant, but N can..den suddenly change to the below pics..
HUH???
dun uds leh.....

i thought this was the world of "MU" (nothingness) - the place which u go after death cuz heaven and hell don't exsist. den all the dead ppl walking...

den i thought, okay maybe that person in the middle is raito..
even in the world of "MU" he still got some power...

and suddenly appears this "LORD KIRA?" and is a pretty girl???
actually there's a picture of the pretty girl in the next page la, but i didnt save it, so can't post..
hmm so why is there a bunch of ppl praying????
and wad's so special about the girl???

yea and this is how it all ended...
hmm someone explain can??? xa?? or sy when u read finish???

XBanquetX

2006-09-25T00:19:00.000-07:00

DO NOT WATCH "BANQUET" IF U HAVEN'T DONE SO BUT PLAN TOO.

horrible boring
S....L....O....W
show...

LOUSY...
i give it a rating of 8/10 for horribleness..

for the movie which scored 10/10,
i give it graciously to "April Snow"

and that's good rating by me.
thanks.
=)

2006-09-22T01:18:00.000-07:00

oh ya.. actually i'm kinda disappointed that light yagami aka kira looks like ~that...
and misa also...
she's suppose to have yellow hair!!
light's suppose to be Shuai.. and brown hair!
L is not weird enough!!! make those eyes blacker!!!!!!!!!

hmm jap director! copy also copy more like it mah..
since face is impossible to copy cuz it's human..
at least the OBviOUS things u can do is hair colour, style, and those BLACK EYES of L's!!

okay. maybe u dun wanna be such a copycat..
BUDDEN Y ARE THE SHINIGAMIS SO PERFECT!?!?!
haha..
the death god's been made soooo alike..
it's totally captivating la!
i'm even more lookin forward to the movie cuz i wanna see more of the shinigamis!!!
LOOKS JUZ LIKE THE ONE IN THE COMIC... only better..
-ALIVE-

=P

.deathnote rocks.deathnote rocks.deathnote rocks.

Death Note made movie!

2006-09-22T01:11:00.000-07:00

omg
omg
omg
!!!!!

DEAtH noTE has bEen Made LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i can hardly believe it la!
but i do now anyway after checking the internet...
ahha

youtube has trailers!!!!
but most can't load finish leh..
STUPID =.=

wad a coincidence..
juz now at bugis, we made a trip to kinokuniya cuz fj wanted to check updates on [dear boys].
i told her about [deathnote] which is the only jap manga i've eva read and reading...

i read celestial zone too! nice =)

then on the way home, at the mrt,
there was an advert on DEATH NOTE THE MOVIE!!!!!!!

OMG!!!!!!!!!!
this is soo wonderful la...

i ever searched for the anime.. but there isn't one to search for..
and now POOF!
i'm gonna see [deathnote] come alive!!!

yipee!!
hooray!!!

the [DEATH DATE] : 19 october 2006
deathnote fans out there.. NOTE!!!!!!

im not alone la..
sy actually reads it too!! and she's mad about L !

haha!!!

have i been ever so crazy over a movie??
don't remember...

but i can't wait for [deathnote] the movie to be released!!!

k i better go continue the story..
i think it was only completed this yr..

hmmm definitely there's gonna be a [deathnote movie] part 2 and 3 la..
N isn't around the 1st..

I Am BaCK

2006-09-22T00:48:00.000-07:00

prelims are over!
ok it's been over for a day and half.

glad (or maybe not) to say tt i won 7 half battles out of 8!
i didnt take maths ppr 2...
horrendous struggle in the midst...

WELL...
LYNNE IS BACK!!!!

yesterday after the last paper,
went with pw and fj to gym, swim, and suana..

felt really refresh after weeks and weeks of juz eating and eating
esp gobbling all the sweet and unhealthy stuff cuz of stress...

pw went home..
fj and i went to katong to eat.. - my 1st eva laksa!!!
ooh la la!!
=)

i was feeling super high after that..
i dunno.. or was it i was already feeling high??? haha

fj said it's cuz prelims are over...
i juz felt really relieved and relaxed all of a sudden that evening.. so felt high loh..
haha

after that we met up with jeremy at the indoor stadium.
NBL!
= national basketball league.
Singapore Slingers Vs Adelaide 36ers

how bout it was a freaking exciting match????
=P

i was supporting Slingers..
muz support singapore team mah..
although the team was mostly made up of australians...
playing against their own race...
-_-"

anw, great match!!! jing cai jing cai!!!!!!!
was like cheering!
"yea man!" when they scored..
"ka-ching!" when they got the panalty shots in.
"defence *clap clap clap* defence *clap clap clap*"
GO SLINGERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
awesome.. i totally wanna play bball now man..
haha

i'm so gonna go next yr again if can get free tix..
yes i will..

post prelim activity 1

2006-09-22T00:37:00.000-07:00

went to suntec k box today with my 2 buddies- pw & fj again..

since when did k box start having "gd service" ?
the waiter was like "hello, room 5.......u all noe the charges rite? it's 7+++"
"what lunch set would u like? we have soya chicken and laksa. i recommend soya chicken. it's nice. "

stunned.. since when k box offer laksa?? i tot should be more high class wan?
but anw i ordered laksa leh!!!
MY 2nd Laksa! in consecutive days!!!! hahaaha

"what drinks do u all want? we have coffee, tea, coke, sprite, ice lemon tea."

then he also dutifully passed us another control to tiao the key cuz i was asking how to tiao the key...

we were quite surprised by the "gd service"..
maybe it's juz him la...

den at around 1.40, this guy came in again and asked, "do u want to extend ur singing time?"

us : "how?"

waiter : " u all can order drinks loh.. "

me : "how much is a drink?"

waiter : "$6+"

me to myself : "i expected $5+.. anw siao ah, daylight robbery ah? go coffeeshop, order milo, coffee or tea less than a dollar la! ice lemon tea is like maybe 1.20 la.. siao ah i refuse to order."

waiter : "u 3 share 1 drink la.."

us : "erm dun wan extend"

hey, come on man...
we'd rather extend the time ourselves then spend a yuan wang 6 bucks?!?!

we'll juz stay on until u chase like 2 3 times...
*bleAh*

we went shopping at bugis street after that..
YAY I FOUND MY JUMPER!!
(opps.. i mean pullover! but i got the jacket instead)
haha..

our legs were on the verge of breaking le...
pw went home early again..

fj and i continued to break legs at parco....

SAVE ME

2006-09-10T00:17:00.000-07:00

someone save me!!!!!

hai.. even god can't help...
i wanna save myself too..

but...

i'm like how lousy and weak..
i can't even beat "fear" they claim.. a one-man army...
even with many great and powerful soldiers willing to fight alongside with me..
if i give up...
i'll still fail !!!!!!!
it doesn't matter how many great soldiers there are!

it's all down to ME MYSELF AND I alone..

to be victorious, i need to win this battle ON MY OWN...

why is it.. i KNOW.. and WANT..
but can't execute?????

i've got 8 battles ( i consider each prelim paper one battle i need to fight) from tomorrow onwards for 2 weeks..
for every battle i turn up..
it's half the fight won...

can i win all 8 halfs??

or do i juz forgo them because i know i'll lose in the end??

hai..
it's only logical that i juz go and sit for the paper, win half the battle, rather then not going at all right???

that'll be like a walkover la in a badminton com..
that's no sportsmanship at all..

BUT U CAN'T JUZ USE LOGIC!!!!!!
not on me...

SOMEONE RECUE ME!!!!!!!!!!!
PULL ME OUT FROM THE DEVIL'S TIGHT AND PAINFUL CLUTCHES !!!!!!!
I WANNA GET OUT OF HELL...........

Untitled

2006-09-09T23:49:00.000-07:00

I open my eyes

I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light

I can’t remember how

I can’t remember why

I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain

And I can’t make it go away

No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me

I've made my mistakes

I’ve got no where to run

The night goes on

As I’m fading away

I’m sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming

I try to make a sound but no one hears me

I’m slipping off the edge

I’m hanging by a thread

I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered

And I can’t explain what happened

And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I've made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

No I can’t

turn back time please??

2006-09-09T23:40:00.000-07:00

the 1st time i heard this song...
i remember nicole telling me how this song applied to us during our judo camp..
yes.. camp was freaking tough..
even though we suffered a lot.. i enjoyed it.. saddistic maybe? nah.. to me..that was team spirit..
i couldn't really understand why she felt this song related to us..
but if she really felt this song was about our lives then..
she was probably feeling shitty..
maybe she went through a lot with the judo team.. and everything was coming to an end..
she cherished judo as well as the team very much..
maybe she was having her own problems then..or the reluctance to go...

but now.. i think this song is really how i'm feeling..
it's crap.........
sigh...
i wonder how i could be so happy one day.. and the next i plunge into depression again..
but i can't help not accumulating all these rubbish feelings..!!

that night, xiao an recalled that i was "diagnosed" with "split personality" after taking a personality test during last years leadership camp..

alright.. maybe it's true.. since i'm showing signs of it..
but this is in bad terms!!!!
my split personality used to be like happy to ultra crazy!!!!

and now it's wad?!?!?
extreme shit?!?

maybe my being happy the past days were juz masking all those misery deep inside...

i just WANT to be happy!!!! for a REAL LONG TIME........

i thought psychologists say that screaming helps..
i screamed today...
as loud as i could into my blanket...
but did it help?

no...

life sUX when u dun belong...
What am i suppose to do?
what am i suppose to be??

studying is so not my forte...
i wanna start all over again....

time doesn't allow....

Overnight at the Airport 1

2006-09-08T02:17:00.000-07:00

i woke up like 2 hours ago which is like 330!?!!!?!?
OMG..
and since then i've been blogging and uploading photos...

went to airport to try and study overnight...
wah lao! kena cheated!!! y no free wireless wan la!!
den i still have to carry the heavy laptop everywhere i go..
MA FAN LA.. and it's not ok cuz i couldnt go online which was the most impt thing!!!

oh well oh well..
even though im not productive..
i had a wild time with xac..
haahah!!
many interesting events..
or rather "weird" ppl around..

after midnight, an indian woman talking on her handphone suddenly juz put her butt down and sat opposite xac (which was suppose to be my seat).. but i wasnt there tt time
because i went to use another table...

den i couldnt hear wad the indian lady said to xac.. who didnt hear either cuz she was blasting her mp3..
and the woman lay down to sleep...
-_-"
STUNNED!!!!!!!!!

there was also a weird old man who has like many big maps over the tables and chairs..
and once in a while bundle up stuff in a macdonals plastic bag and put on top of the dustbin instead on INside...

and he was laughing when me and an were being stunned by the indian woman...
HUH....

we changed place..
then a couple came and sat nearby..
OMG THE GIRL IS LIKE HOW TEH!!!?!?
her voice is how squeeling????
me and an were like omg la!!
then i was bored and went for a walk.. and xac msged me to say the girl is weird and freaky cuz when her bf went to buy food, she was laughing by herself and clapping her hands...

anw when i came back i sat a different seat so i can observe them..
haah..
opps.. i think the girl got suspect us la..
cuz everytime she does sth, me and an will like try to control our laughter..
den pretend we were talking about sth else..
ahahah!!!

okay.. i should go find someone to go out and study with me now...

part 2 of Crs's bday celebrations

2006-09-08T00:59:00.000-07:00

the food was not bad...~~
den we took quite a no. of photos..
the 1st one, we asked the waiter to take..
den he taking halfway.. this negro waiter WALKED PAST!!!
we were all sTunNed... den we saw the photo and it was ok..
den exclaimed "eh nv take his head ah??"
then the waiter started saying some things and went " ha ha ha ha ha ha... "

-_-""

ooh... NYNY also makes FREE CANDY FLOSS!!!
weird man..but cool!!!
the teens at the table beside us were getting candy floss la...
den realised there was a machine in front..
den went to check it out...
and realised u can make ur own..
so OF Cuz i wanna make rite..!?
crs and yt took the ready made ones..
and i tried to collect the flossy sugar on my chopstick.. but kinda failed..
ahahha most of it wasnt around the stick...
actually wanted to make one as large as SC's head for crs one loh!!
den very funny.. cuz most of the weight of the candy floss was not on the stick..
while i was walking back... it toppled!!!!
and crs came to the rescue and stuck her floss with mine..
haha damn funny man!! and we took statue of liberty too!!
NEw YorK mah!!!
ahah!!

i'll upload the pics later..

(see la.. blogger is so corrupted i've to split int0 diff days to post my entry.. )

happy bday SPOS!

2006-09-06T12:44:00.000-07:00

went to celebrate Crs's (aka SPOS) birthday (which is tml) today!!

hmm ok.. that 1st sentence quite lo soh..

where did we go arh? was is new york? or new york new york??? anyway, it's at city link there.. the 1st large restaurant u see from the mrt.. the setting looks really attractive with the green seats, round "green apple" chairs, cool "cubicles", "U-shaped" benches...

ok... so we went in..
den this small waitress gave us a small rectangular table for 4-5 ppl when we had 6..
the cubicles looked interesting so we asked if we could have it.. but i wasn't paying attention to what they were saying.. so i dun really noe wad's their problem. but they gave us a U-shaped table...and it was kinda like so mian qiang?!?!?

hello..~~~~
the place then was like EMPTY???
NONE of the cubicles or u-shaped tables were taken up at all CAN!!!!
dun uds how come they don't accomodate to customers' REASONABLE request.
hai...

then when ordering, the waiter (dunno gd or bad.. weird la) SAID "u all order one by one" when yt was dianing the dishes.. like quit rude la.. budden we juz follow la.. easier also la..
but the way he said it hai... not very gd leh..
ur working in service sector leh!?

ok.. so the dishes came one by one...
quite quickly one after another..
until all arrived but mine....
wait wait wait...
then the people from another table who came later got his food 1st... maybe they cook chicken very fast la.. bcuz all the chicken at our table arrived already.. then crs which was pork ribs arrived 2nd last.. and mine was pork ribs too..
budden realy took too long, so we asked the waiter to check..
he took our receipt along..
and he took SUPER LONG?!?!
like can walk here walk there.. serve other tables.. den come back, put back the receipt and say "it will be soon" and left...

we all gave a -_-"??? face la..
were wondering where the suggestion paper was so we can complain..
well complain will help them improve mah!!!!!
haha

Focus!!!

2006-09-06T08:38:00.000-07:00

Reasons for studying for A levels..

be proud of myself
go university (hopefully NUS?)
be with wonderful seniors at NUS
be ivan's junior again! And maybe learn latin from him? wahah!!
won't live with regrets for not taking A's
have a peace of mind
learn dance (even at nus!)
learn drums
relax and chill for 7 months without getting bugged from the problem
defeat the devil
end of my nightmares and traumas
be a stronger and smarter person
be happy
won't waste money on papers and everything else
go for prom (1st time!)
go clubbing after prom (1st time too!)
be more exposed to the outside world and gain more experiences
play badminton again
catch up with friends
don't have to go through 3 more extra years of PoLy
lead a more normal and happening life
higher probability to have happening life during holidays rather than stuck in poly
can go work part time
earn money
go shopping
watch movies
find THE ONE

Focus!

2006-09-06T01:27:00.000-07:00

Why do we lose motivation to do the things we set out to do??

Because we are focusing on the wrong things!!! We tend to focus on the process of getting there rather than the results!! Because the process is time consuming, it requires work, you have to put in the effort, and everybody wants things done immediately -we all want results right away.

But does a marathon athlete start off by running the New YorkMarathon?
No.
Instead he or she trains sometimes for years before running in the New York Marathon.

Does a professional football player become a professional football player without training and playing at least in high school?
No.

Does a successful company generate millions of dollars in profitsovernight?
No.
They all go through a process, which to you may seem excruciating and time consuming because you're looking only at the process and not focused on the reward or the result.

By shifting your focus to the reward or the result you give your mind an objective and you continually give your subconscious mind the instruction of achieving that goal. You're constantly telling your subconscious mind that achieving that goal is important and you're telling it why it is important.

Focus on what you want.
Eliminate the excuses.
Change your reasons - by thinking of what you want and why.

Effect and Cause

2006-08-31T21:11:00.000-07:00

don't know why all of a sudden i'm thinking bout these...
or the past....

i was a bad bad person...

sry for not knowing how to appreciate things u've done and u guys as my friends..

this adversity has made me realised how much u all still care for me..
and it'll be better if we forget the unhappy past...
actually i've forgotten..
no maybe not.. it was then when i was reading through all the letters that i remembered..
it's juz that we won't even think about such matters now..
and when we don't... we thought we forgot..

ha, but some of the heart breaking moments actually felt like sweet memories of the past now...
SORRY i had to be lidat then!!!
even till now.. i think i still am.. actually i was again a few months back...
but i guess the person's found the treasure already.. so good for u!

however, now.. maybe just for now..
i'd like to try.. and juz try...
could be the outcome is what i always thought it would be and therefore am afraid..
but in reality.. i'll nv actually know if don't allow it to happen right??
maybe i should just ask..
be straightforward and frank...

but then again... it's juz like so god damn hard for me to say sth or anything about this condition..
since it's the cause of every negative effect on me...
hai.. so then again.. it'll probably nv happen anymore..
it's juz getting worst... and so would i...
and as people grow older.. it's so much harder to make friends..

i can only start to be me when they're hidden... ???

appear!

2006-08-31T21:07:00.000-07:00

where are u???
please appear soon...

and talk with me?

2006-08-25T10:17:00.000-07:00

i should stop putting myself in a bad spot..
ming ming ke yi avoid de shi qing..
i still go for it..
and in the end.. end up feeling humiliated..

ok.. i know.. i won't go anymore..
thanks for always inviting..
but someone doesn't like it...
and ends up with one spiting another..

actually i really don't mind hanging out with them...
budden.. it's kinda hard since im not really like "friends"
more like "ReLatIveLy"...??

maybe it's an age issue??
but then again, i realise that our circle of friends, or people we [know] are interlinked!!
so how much can age be an issue?!?!?!
ivan's even like what.. 30+ ????

think again, maybe it's a blood issue..
yea it probably is..
but i probably wouldnt have known them if it weren't for blood..

sigh.. i've got seriously horrible EQ man..
i can't relate..
i just live in my own world.. and in my own wild imagination..
cant i juz stop thinking so much.. and fang de kai?
i thought i used to.. and was happy then..
then.. what happened???
because i was affected by some changes..
it hurts physically, mentally and spiritually..
when something gets close.. i choose to avoid and run away..

is it my lack of confidence??
but if i wasnt like this.. i sure would have a whole lot more to say and do...
i'm afraid to know the consequences if i accept somethings even things that i would really want deep down inside..

even if i bi duan yang chang..
it's only temporarily..
i can't do it all the time..

i find no meaning living like this..
it'll be good if i go do some meaningful work like volunteery activities?
maybe for the blind?
so that i won't have to worry of what they may think of me when they "see" me..
but rather them see me with their hearts...

maybe a lot of people around me do see with their hearts..
but even i can make myself not see with my own eyes..thus i can't help but think that people will judge me through their eyes too..

can i change?

2006-08-25T09:25:00.000-07:00

haiz.. yesterday happily blogged sth more happy and sth i felt i did good in..
but the post nv appeared!!

anw i CUT my hair yesterday!!
i think i don't really like it cuz it's not neat! now i'll always look like i just got out of bed..

ivan didn't call today..
how come?? did he forget??
maybe 3 consecutive days of not coming broke the making of a habit...
hai..
y do i keep deluding him that i did work everyday???
nah.. i should stop deluding myself and get cracking..
but actually i do right?
i mean.. i really do try to study and do some qns...
but y do i take so long???
and my attention span is sooo weak that it worries me a LOT.. =(
hai.. ivan u better turn up REAL soon..
like NOW!?
i need to talk!! i think.. actually i dunno what i want to say..
but it seems i've got a lot on my mind.. BUT I CAN'T rememBER??!

2006-08-16T20:00:00.000-07:00

i got lost as i lived my days..

prayed for something good to happen,

and someone came along my way..

He passed me a Blue Day Book..

with pictures of animals which cheers u up,

and learnt that we must not forget to laugh at ourselves.

Yesterday, he appeared..

Uncle Agony says, " the doc is in. "

i'm now very blessed...
and being well taken care of...

i am given a balloon full of hope..

and i feel pretty much showered with lots of love..

so i tell myself.. i will try..
if not for my sake...for urs...

thanks for coming into my life!! =))

seriously...

2006-08-16T19:41:00.000-07:00

hopefully life will be better..

but kinda tough though..

there's still occasional nags

but less harsh...

been told to drink lots and lots of water too.

boo..

i'd play some drums if i could..
but daddy won't allow..

or do a little dance maybe? =p

or play dangeroushopscotch!!!

but i'd really like to see more thumbs up

especially from U

so that i at least know i'm goin' the right way..

and that i'm gonna be fine.. =)

and last but not least

with my baby monkey by my side..

=))

2006-08-11T01:07:00.000-07:00

lost...
i want to leave....
bye...

2006-08-05T00:45:00.000-07:00

how much longer can i go on...

BA BA black sheep have u any wool?

2006-08-01T03:41:00.000-07:00

i really cannot stand the BA animore...
it's intolerable!!!
it's even so excruciating juz being in the lt and waiting for wad seems to take eternity for the sheep to flash the answers.. and den to make them disappear in a flash..

me and pw counldn't stand it.
we left.

somehow i think that if i posed this qns, "who dislikes BA?"
and tabulate ans from a sample (my lect grp).
i'd get a 95% confidence integral that the population dislikes him.

okay i think i used it in the wrong context.. oh well.. who call me pon and dun listen..
BOO THAT BA!

the trill of escaping..1

2006-07-29T08:15:00.000-07:00

i got attacked by some photons and i gained just enough energy (i.e fai) to escape the metal (i.e jail celled LT and sch).

today was college's day..
i dun uds the importance of it that they have to make it compulsory for EVERYONE to come back!

90% of the cohort was witnessing the prize presentation in the PT from the various LTs!!
it was BORING TO DEATH...

den me fj pw went out and pretended to go toilet..
we wanted to go bkshop or sth.. but there were teachers outside the LT!
so we HAD to go toilet..
it was quite spas cuz we were outside the toilet comtemplating wad and how to make our next move..

in the end had to return to the LT ( the flight of fantasy?? yea rite) .. cuz the "chief stewardess" was irritated with so many ppl walking of the flight of fantasy...

trapped back to boredom once again..

den justina came over and told us of a escape route..
"dangerous but exciting" i thought!

i would never thought i would do such a thing.. in fact i don't do such things!
illegally escaping from sch.. it's like criminals from jail!

tracy asked, "u not leaving meh?"
den i was.. erm.. i hum, i too guai liao.. i can't do bad things.. "u think i'll do that?"
she pointed to the white pouch on my table..
its says "i am not a RULES kinda girl".

the trill of escaping..2

2006-07-29T07:32:00.000-07:00

in the end...
me fj pw and just sneaked out from the front basement exit..
outside we saw the chior rehearsing.
as we passed them, jeremy saw us and tried to "hai" us..
he was like " hey u all are leaving!?!?!?!? "
den we "shhh..."
and he used resonance and said "well done".
well.. it sounded like resonance cuz it was damn load..
purposely wan loh.. wan teacher to hear arh... so evil!!
and the whole choir clapped for us..
-_-" ??? wahaha.. quite funny though..

we headed towards the carpark.. peeked over the wall..
went behind cars, slow when need be, and fast when we could..
after we past the canteen we made a straight long dash for the tiny unlocked door which was right at the other end..

as we neared the gate, i could feel the adrenaline rush..
the feeling was very high and shuang..

Muahaha!!! we made it out!!!

come to think of it..
we only had less than 45 mins to tahan..
it's actually quite dumb to run out already..
but anw, i dun regret doing it actually..
haha..
it's the experience!!

maybe yamuna was trying to send me a msg when she gave me that white "i am not a RULES kinda girl" pouch...

maybe i shouldn't harp on rules all the time..
beside.. rules are meant to be broken!! ( i mean stupid, senseless rules la k)

high high high

2006-07-28T23:13:00.000-07:00

today half day!

kbox high high high!

boardgaming was fun!

high high high

2006-07-28T23:01:00.000-07:00

ok la, i shall elaborate juz a BIT more on the previous 3 lined entry..

went to marina kbox.
biggest bunch.
me fj trace deb foo bj munty glen mark..
( i tot it was a weird combi...)

den actually we spiltted into 2 rooms since so many ppl..
we got 2 small rooms! -_-
the previous times i went they gave me big big rooms leh..

anw the guys seemed kinda suaku about kbox so in the end we combined..
and they had to sqeeze into our tiny room!?!?!

eh! shouldn't we be transferred into a magnificent room with mini stage or not doesnt matter??
but still a bigger rm at least??

haiya, nvm la..
the kbox session was quite high afterall..
THANKS TO ME!
made the girls stand on the chair and GET HIGH!!!
haha

damn fun.. no mikes but we all sang together on the top of our voices and went crazy..
very exhausting...
but enjoyable!!
=))

high high high

2006-07-28T22:57:00.000-07:00

after k-ing,
me fj foo deb bao went down to mind's cafe near ps there to meet wy and gang.
it's simliar to settler's cafe at katong which yam told me about..

yay! hey yam! i've finally been to that kinda place!!!!
haha.. u were right! it's fun man!! haha..
esp with ur friends...

hmmm..
the 1st game we played was some animal calling game??
and i picked a frog..
and i made the sound "kuehbeck"
my dhs bad frens does it ring a bell??
erm.. does the name ng zu rong help??
hehe...

but my silly friends couldn't get it..
they called "ribbeck" or sth.. so kept losing!!
waahah
damn funny..

den we played "THE BOSS", muz invest, talk terms, close deals and earn money..
haha..

and the last game.. erm.. i cant get the name..
but it starts with a C..
ctlier? cliter? ctlver??

anw it's quite fun to play.. needs a bit of thinking and strategy..
i was quite unlucky at 1st cuz the 1st 2 rounds i kena killed by the evil assassin..
so i couldnt get to play for 2 rounds!!!
sian man..
hmph!
but later i got a bit luckier and thought harder and manage to catch up. =)
haha..

i'll definitely go back there..
i think mind's is cheaper than settlers..
mind's juz 5 bucks freeflow of drinks and u can play from open till 6pm.
settlers i heard from jb it's 6 bucks for 4 hrs???
i'll go find out more..

update 1

2006-07-27T14:12:00.001-07:00

okok.. since i juz recieved requests to revive my blog..
i shall since im at the com lab!

took a day off from sch yesterday..
was kinda tired.. but i slpt early!!! for once?!!?
but was kinda stressed out by the mess and piles of work tt needs to be completed by today and friday..

1) compre
2) trapezium rule
3) analog electronics

and at the start of the week i was chionging
1) 7.2 normal dist
2) alternating currents

ya so quite fedup with my slowness... =(

well i completed compre which took an entire morning and afternoon?!?!
den i couldnt do analog cuz i din copy the lect notes!?
so i did some trapezium qns...
heck anything else..
it was time to sleep..

den today.. luckily mr beetsma haven do the tutorial qns..
and i handed in my compre..
and riduculously, though i wanted to sleep during GP..
the last 35 mins of it was pure laughter!!!!
at i lost count of how many things!!!

haha.. WorD plAy.. fUnniE!!
so wad's HippiE and YuPpiE???

and mr ng was so mean to hope tt seth would have knowledge of sth more then yingchen who's the " chinese intellect " and when seth said sth which yc didnt noe of, ng went "yes! finally beat the chinese intellect!" .... damn mean can!?!?
but i was bursting out with laughter...
but i controlled super hard so that i wouldnt be heard..
haha

update 2

2006-07-27T14:06:00.001-07:00

today's gonna be a long long day...
stupid BA la... (maths lecturer)
wah lao eh.. he's taking so many stats chaps consecutively loh!!! freaking shit!!

cuz lecturers are given a certain no. of periods to complete a topic..
so den this BA is taking 3 consecutive topics.. so i think he has a lot of sessions..

come to the angry part..
he teach normal distribution over like 2-3 weeks?!?!?!?!
NO!!!! wait.. is from b4 hoildays till after holidays and he juz completed it this week only la!!! freaking ShiT.. so freaKing SLOW...
den today finally start on chapter 8 sampling..
and CHIONG like crazy and dun allow us to copy finish...
den later at 230 there's a make up lect..
another 2 grueling hours of rushing and trying to copy as much as ur fingers can scribble..

and den also recieved chapter 9 notes and i see his stupid BA name printed on the top right hand corner..
sigh.. i wonder when he'll finish..
i heard other grps are having make ups for chapter 9 la!!!!

BA BA BA.... stupid black sheep of the maths lecturers...

update 3

2006-07-27T14:06:00.000-07:00

anw for a more happy part,
mum came back from thailand yesterday nite!!!
i straightaway pryed open her luggage and dug out everything inside to see wad she bot...
haha...
LOADS OF BEADY NECKLASSES!!!
they're suppose to be for me to cut and use the beads to make my own bag charm..
but i guess i wont..
some are quite nice la.. summore so ex loh.. cut liao damn wasted and stupid la..
i'll probably end up making sth which looks ugly and messed up.. or prob not even complete it..
cuz i think it's really quite hard to do la..

den i also saw some clothes in other bag..
tt wan today after maths make up lect..
im gonna chiong home and explore the rest of the goodies..
haha..
i'll prob start a fashion parade at home.. ahha...

photos

2006-07-10T18:53:00.000-07:00

i've uploaded the photos we took in the chem lab..
and others as well.. haha

oh mabu's birtday tt wan... muz get from sc..
den i'll post them..
Happy belated soccerish birthday BUz!! =))

oh shit.. i received really terrible news today at assembly..
49 days to prelims GP ppr..
i hate GP v v v v much.. quite fearful of it.. and everything else as well.
oh no.. 49 days..
definitely not enough to study finish for all other subs..
.........
.........

and i was told today tt i "could " take GP mid yrs TODAY..!!!
yea rite.. saying "could" means i have to since i dunno how to reject rite..
damn jian...

i hate these stupid pprs!!!!!!!

last 3 matches of world cup 2006

2006-07-10T18:50:00.001-07:00

2nd semis was french loafs vs grapes.. i tot it was obvious was those meant..
but i think my frens are too slow or aren't bright enough to get it..
french loafs = france
graps = portugal.. cuz PU TAO YA .. haha..

anw tt wan got win some money...
a twist of unfortunate events...
i bot france win. which they did.
and +1 1/2 goals to grapes..

den my dad weirdly wanted to buy port win 2-1.
so he coloured on the boxes 2 1... (singapore pool stuff.. so if ur under 18 ur NOT SUPPOSE to noe this... )
but ur not suppose to shade the score u wan!
ur suppose to see the no. to which wadeva score u wan..

when the slip of strike was printed out, my dad realised it was wrong..
it was france win 1-0.
den he went to buy port win 2-1 again.. -_-""

well but his blunder did help win some money.

3rd 4th placing..
my bet was for port..
damn.. but germs won...
actually wad was i thinking???
should have supported germs since i had thought very badly that they would have gotten into finals... cuz of so many reasons...
1) top scorer kluos (dunno how to spell)
2) homegrd.. so fan base.. pressure on both teams in +ve and -ve ways..
3) top class goalie Kahn and Lehman..

oh well.. that wan was painful to watch.. esp scoring 3 times!!

FinalS
my bet was for italy though i was pretty on the fence on who to really really support..
but since i bet italy so i wan them to win..
1-1 within the 90 min game was bad!!! lose money!!!
france score 1 more goal jiu hao la..
cuz dad bot total goals 3 and italy win.. he also did bet draw which got win la..
but overall still lose money!?!?!
brrr...

well.. as for was zidane did..
i missed it cuz i fell asleep but saw the replay..
at 1st i tot it was quite funny.. headbutting M(wad's his name?)..
i would have thought that if one were to be agitated, maybe it's more normal to use ur hands to box or whack the person, or kick him..
head butting?? on national TV??
well.. tt's the other side of zidane..

think again.. it's rather sad.. cuz he's retiring after this world cup..
in such a manner??? not very glorious is it??
den also v sad cuz he got red card and sent off.. den have to go dressing room..
cant even receive his medal!!!
=(
i guess the only consolation prize is getting the golden ball??

last 3 matches of world cup 2006

2006-07-10T18:50:00.000-07:00

last 3 matches of world cup

2006-07-10T18:26:00.000-07:00

world cup semis

2006-07-04T20:50:00.000-07:00

stayed up late last nite or rather woke up early this morn to watch soccer.

GERMANY vs ITALY.

spos crs came over to catch the soccer fever together..
well not so much of a fever.. but fatigue instead.. -_-"

we stayed up till 2am, chatting and laughing about photos and old times and watched youtube.
i couldn't tahan anymore.. so we decided to take an hour's nap.

fortunately for fj whose msg came abruptly, "italy almost scored!" startled me awake and we hurried outside to the tv.

the starting was quite exciting with both teams hot on each others heels entering each side many times..

the germs kept missing out on their many chances to shoot while italy could have almost scored a goal if not for the germ keeper not being able to catch the ball in the 1st attempt and there was a little scare when he and a pasta fumbled with the ball..

0-0 for 1st half.. oh no.. are they gonna score or not???
for the 2nd half i was sorta falling asleep le.. only to wake up once in a while to see the progress..
HORRID...
last 20 min...
last 10 min...
last 2 min...

nil-nil !!!

wah lao eh.. damn qi gek can!!!!
and italy had to score 2 goals during extra time.. when i had given up and fallen asleep again..

damn! lost 10 bucks liao la!!!

sigh.. was pretty excited for a few days since i placed a bet tt germany would win within 90 min.
den keep hearing ppl say alot alot...
and we bot another for total goals :1.

aHHH... irritating germs la! y cant they win!!! if not lose faster can!!!
stupid goalie at the end then let the ball go in!!! during game let one in also i wouldnt have minded loh!!! eeeeeeerrr...

oh well.. haha.. but the nite had been enjoyable..
only thing was hard to wake up this morning so went late to sch..
and the security guard was funny cuz he asked for my id without actually asking for it in reality..
haha...

anw.. tonite.. go french loafs!!!! win hor cuz im gonna bet on u i think... see how ba..

be appreciative

2006-06-23T03:01:00.000-07:00

very late now.. 3am in the morning..
but i'm not gonna put what i need to do for tml after i wake up cuz i'd probably be too tired...
im gonna msg every single soul that showered me with that bit of love.

y do u all do such things..
just when i thought i was alone in this ugly world..
some ppl would pass my way and take some of the ugliness away...

my story 1

2006-06-23T01:50:00.000-07:00

Did you notice the kind act someone did for you today?
Did you take a moment to appreciate that kind act?

You may have to search for that kind act - but it's there - it may have been something simple - like a cup of coffee being handed to you, or a friend saying something nice.

We all need to be appreciated.

When we do something for somebody, or say something kind to somebody and they respond with appreciation - it sure makes you feel good. In many cases you want to do it again.

But how often have you done something for someone and got no appreciation in return?

When that happens you probably don't feel very good and you may even avoid that person in the future.

We all love being appreciated.

So today take a moment to appreciate somebody - you'll make themfeel good and you'll feel even better.

my story 2

2006-06-23T01:46:00.000-07:00

not really driven to blog this week...
nor now...
but after reading the above from an email...
i cannot drag anymore..
as a person, i shouldn't....

so i'm forcing myself to do this...
i want all my friends to know that i DO appreciate them...

have acted really badly this past week...
okay.. a lot of you probably don't know because i've been "zi bi-ing" myself from the outside world...

i cooped myself in my room for days and days...
ignored any instant message on msn and sms and calls..
it's not that i don't want to talk..
it's cuz i was afraid to do so.. i didn't know what to say or what to think...

1stly i'd like to apologise...
i probably made u worried..
sry...
i probably made u irritated..
sry...
i probably made u hurt...
sry...

i really appreciate whatever u guys try to do for me..
to contact me in anyway..
to show ur concerns...
i DO recognise that u all care... and am really sry that i gave off a very negative response..
BUT i really appreciate ur care...

my story 3

2006-06-23T01:40:00.000-07:00

i guess many of you would wanna noe what route i'll be taking next?
well..
to be honest..
i actually wanted to quit sch..
yea.. the severity of it....
i noe i noe..

my choice was to go poly.. if not lasalle-sia?
i preferred poly.. but i would probably have to wait 9 months to enter next yr..
i checked lasalle-sia.. they actually have a july in-take..
but i still choose poly over that...

yes.. i was more or less decided already..
i've shouted and screamed and shed tears to be there..
my family reluctantly agreed..

days after the incident.. i really stayed at home..
i was waiting for a more definite and final statement to be made..
but that nv came...

was i really into my new route already??
but im not officially outta jc yet...
no one noes this yet.. except a few friends..
neither do the teachers..

i didn't know what my next move was..
even if i had a slight idea.. i didn't know how and refused to execute it..

i juz self-tortured myself..
staying in my room for entire day to night to day and night again..
mind a blurr.. direction still unclear..
i refused to pick up any materials to study.. try again..
no i had no courage to do so..
i lost all faith and believe and confidence..
i was literally a living body with a dead mind full of useless rubbish worries and thoughts..

i couldnt stand just rotting at home.. being so unproductive..
not in terms of studying since i was quitting sch anw..
but really not doing anything but watching tv and going online..
i tried doing sth.. like read a book.. but couldnt find anything tt interest me..
i took out a shirt and started to cut it up..
maybe i could start some practicing b4 i enroll into the sch of design..
but i was done in just mins..
not long enough to occupy my frustrated self..

my story 4

2006-06-23T01:37:00.000-07:00

5 days later, i decided to take a breather and go out by myself..
popular was my initial idea.. juz go over and get a cd..
then i though, maybe i could drop by MP library, get myself a few craft bks and then head over to popular to get a cd and some materials to do sth..

i did just that...
but i failed to find the kind of craft bk i had in mind.. neither could i find those on fashion design..
i juz kept browsing and walked all over aimlessly..

then i bumped into an old fren.. he was there studying with 2 others..
reluctantly went over to say hi..
well.. at this stage, wad else can u ask other then "how's ur revision?"
yea.. i was afraid tt qns would pop out..
so it did..

so i told them...

...
...
...

they say it's fate...
with a little hope and some strength..
now the final decision is to go back schooling..

1 1/2 yrs of battle fought.. maybe i'll just lose to mid-terms and get back on my feet again and fight another 4 months..
if i quit now.. i still need to wait 9 months..
mite as well get on and juz try the A's and if i wan to go poly, i still can do that..
most impt as ck stressed... " money already paid, cannot take back! "

i outcasted myself from others previously not wanting to make known wad horridness i was gonna do because i noe that there will be alot of other opinions which will juz make me confused all over again...

i suffered again that night..
thinking and thinking.. juz wad is right and wad is wrong...

...
...

on which side is the grass greener...........??

i couldn't avoid avoiding THE OTHERS....
i can't help but wonder if god still stands by me..
because i met them..
..gave them a chance to tiao bo my decision again..
..forced to choose jc...

does fate really work???

i wouldnt know yet...

befairtomyself.illgiveittillendoftheyrandiguessiwillonlyknowifidomanagetogothroughalvls..

do u believe in fate???

be appreciative

2006-06-22T11:56:00.000-07:00

2006-06-18T03:27:00.000-07:00

ni men dao di shi xia hai shi zhen de bu dong!?
wo hen xin ku..
wo tao yan na yang de ni men..
gen tao yan zhe yang de wo...

wei she me mei you ren nen li jie wo...
wo hen nan kai kou..
dan shuo le zi hou ni men ye bu dang cheng yi hui shi..
jiu shi na yang de fu yan wo..
rang wo yi shi an xia xin.. hou lai que yi ti dou bu ti..

NI MEN DAO DI DONG BU DONG WO YAO DE SHI ZHE ME YANG DE SHEN HUO AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Don't throw away ur computer!

2006-06-15T03:01:00.000-07:00

ha, my mum just sent me an interesting email..
i've loaded the pictures into my photoblog..
quite cool.. go have a look!!!

Aviva Quarter Finals 1

2006-06-09T23:03:00.000-07:00

damn!
there's goes singapore's last ray of hope!!!
that light that was flickering.. has really diminished...

well.. susilo did a great job in beating top 8 malaysian...
but he played so irritatingly with the vietnam guy!!
no attacks... light dian qiu or drops!???
and mostly he is just rallying with the opponent!
and the opponent also just simply played into ronald's game..
is that good???
not really, cuz it's really just a matter of seeing who makes a mistake 1st!!
argh!!!

play 3 sets summore... wah lao..
watch ronald play lidat.. damn pek chek man.. the rally was like over 10, 20 shots?!?
if ronald wins the point, everyone will be like "phEwwww"
and when he loses, everyone's reaction also similar.. all "argh... " and i saw a bunch of heads all move in every direction showing disappointment..
that sight was quite funny though.. ahah

today he played peter gade..
well.. it's quite expected that gade would win la.. but i almost thought susilo could have gone further during the match..
1st set 18-21 leh.. so close la!!!!
2nd set susilo keep kena tapped onto his body.. ay...
den it was 20-11 !!! and i was like.. point by point.. come on ronald!!!
and wah! quite stunning.. he actually chased till 16 la!!
oh well.. at least he did put up a much better fight this round..
jia you ronald!!!! ur getting back ur form ever since ur injury.. =)

Aviva Quarter Finals 2

2006-06-09T23:01:00.000-07:00

oh.. today’s ending was a rather dramatic one..
our Singapore men’s doubles!!! Hendry and hendra, they are pairing for the 1st time.. and had to go through qualifiers…
they upset malaysia’s seeded 2 rather easily in fact…
and got themselves into the quarters (today la) against denmark’s pakseh and laybourn.
Won 1st set leh!!!!! Damn well they played..
Literally diving for the balls.. and eventually winning the point!!!
Hai but sad they lost the 2nd..
And at the 3rd set… it was sooooo close… SO sO so close!!!!!
19-19..
den denmark 20..
20-20
den denmark 21 !
OMG!!!
21-21
den denmark 22…
and FREAK!!!!!!!
Denmark got the final point and placed Singapore OUT..
AAAHHHHHHHHH
I swore I almost cried la!!!
Sigh… they were really actually really good!!!!!
Underdogs summore la.. play until soooo close..
AH!
Damn it!!!
So sad la…

Well.. I don’t regret one bit of watching today’s matches..
The others games were played real exciting too..
E.g. the women’s doubles : Malaysia vs china
WOW.. I like the Malaysians.. they’re also small size and cute la.. CUZ SUPER PRO DEFENDERS!!! Admire… although they lost.. but their skills are good.. and they would stun you in almost every rally giving a nice or unexpected shot back..

E.g. men’s singles : chen hong vs hafiz
WAH!! Hafiz hao gao ah!!! And when he makes use of this advantage, some shots are really super nice la!
I remember that one shot.. tt cross dian which chen hong couldn’t even react too..
And chen hong did a matrix move to counter hafiz’s tap, but was out.. but interesting la… how come he can bend until lidat!!!!!
And their smashes are like WOAH….
I think chen hong’s smashes can be model smash.
It’s quality is freakin’ gd man
1) sharp
2) fast
3) strong
4) accurate
simply a joy to see him do that.. cuz everyone would be like “waH!”
and be so jealous cuz we cant do that!
Hor hor hor?!?!?!?

prim and proper finally

2006-06-08T02:38:00.000-07:00

i juz packed my room AGAIN!!!
yes.. i previously took like 2 days to pack my wardrob and cleared alot of stuff..
emptied some drawers and squeezed everything into 1 drawer...
yea i took TWO DAYS ok...

tt's was like last week
today i cleared and packed ALL my worksheets and used a FEW MORE LARGE FILES..
can u imagine the piles and piles of mess on the floor????
everything jumbled up...

oh fj and pw some of ur stuff are with me too!!
gotta pass to u all soon?! b4 i lose them or sth since now everything is neat and urs would be the loose pieces left already.. ahah..

off to bathe and to aviva! Go susilo!!
Go SINGAPORE!!

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2006-06-08T02:29:00.000-07:00

[loui] no no accident!!! i think i'll go learn driving soon.. end of year?? my friend's already literally having driving lessons in a car!!!

[fj] yea some SPOS da dan de Sneak lai Sneak qu in my HOUSE! and i found more vandalism on my thermodynamics qns ppr la!!!! BIG TURTLE IS ART.. not vandalism. =)

[xac] hey an!!!! wahaha.. acutally i din realise wad u were saying.. but den i recalled l-y-n-n-e.. and oh ya!! ahah.. it's really from u la!!! wah lao if i realised it earlier i wouldn't use that liao... ahah! and i now how to spell my name all along!!!! brrrr..

[devilic] eh.. but crs looks like an idiot in any photo cuz she looks like that already!!! she's really photogenic man.. the camera always captures her most idiotic sight!! haha!!
and there's no fake crs?? crs!! and crs!!! are both crs!!!!!!! ahah!!!

[crs] i'm not horrible plz.. i took ur photo nice and bright alrite.. ahah!

[manda] how's URS?? i think u have been studying real hard huh since i seldom see u online..
oh no.. u noe tt means im juz always online??? i should stop coming here and GET DOWN TO WORK!!! i havent really started my own stuff other den tuition la... if no tuition i think i'll be even worst off!

Aviva 1

2006-06-08T02:28:00.000-07:00

i missed ronald's match this morning because i couldnt wake up.
but i've already gotten news that he had beaten JUERGEN KOCH (some unknown player) and will be playing in Round 2 tonight against TIEN MINH NGUYEN (a vietmanise, also dunno who..haha)

i think i'll go b4 7, when more singapore and better players are playing.
LILI and XING AIYING are playing singles.
and for some fav players, they are PETER GADE (against CHEN YU), BAO CHUNLAI, MUHD HAFIZ B HASHIM, CHEN HONG, KENNETH JONASEEN..
yea so if these players win their match tonight, will be a motivation for me to go earlier..

sigh.. but i very jialat..
I HAVEN'T STARTED STUDYING YET!!!
keep doing stupid tuition hw which chan nv go thru!!!! and y am i still doing it?!?!?!
I DUNNO!!! i'm juz freakin unplanned and LUAN DIAO!!!
shit.. well i did something "gd" today though..
i wrote out a timetable.. and BRAVO.. i realised i HAVE NO TIME...
how????
CHIONG CHIONG CHIONG .. tt's the only word tt pops into my head...

sigh.. but im not doing anything about it!!!
muz jia you!! really jia you!!! bai tuo le la ok!?!?! GO STUDY ALREADY!!

Susilo's iN!

2006-06-08T02:25:00.000-07:00

"7 June 2006, Singapore - In the end it all came good for Ronald Susilo in the Aviva Singapore Open 2006 at the Singapore Indoor stadium last night.

The Singapore player, who celebrated his 27th birthday yesterday, defeated Malaysia's Kuan Beng Hong in their first round encounter in three games to book his place in the next round against Austria's Juergen Koch tonight.

It was a hard fought match, taking 50 minutes to complete. Ultimately, it was Susilo who won 21-16,18-21,21-16.

The pre-match prediction was in the Malaysian's favour for several reason. For one, he was a seeded player (no.8 i heard). Secondly, Susilo had not played top-flight competitive badminton for a long time since his Achilles heel operation eight months ago.

But Susilo started well last night and looked the more composed player as he took the first game 21-16. There was a fight back from Kuan, the quarter-finalist here two years ago, in the second set. However, when it came down to the crunch, Ronald was up to it and he went to carve out a 21-16 victory to book his place in the next round. "

SPOS

2006-06-02T07:06:00.000-07:00

i certainly do not condone such acts of vandalisation on my stuff...
especially on my homework!!!!

this morning, to my horror,
i realised some SPOS has been to my room,
used my purple marker,
and wrote these very words on my chemistry homework!
"SPOS" and "LOSER".
apparently the vandaliser had wrote her identity down.

sports day [TWO]

2006-05-31T09:34:00.000-07:00

we played bball with sy and melissa.. for about .. 10 min??
then it begin to drizzle.. and rain..
so we went back to the canteen..
after a while the rain stopped..
so we went back to play.. with crs's classmate.. i couldnt catch her name.. "ligand?" @!*#!???
then it rained again!?!?!
then stop again..
none the less, bball is so fun!!!!

after that i followed them to the hall.. actually wanted to play cball and some bad..
but we had to clear the hall.. and the ppl came already so couldn't.

we stroked far far away at the end among ourselves..
i was quite scared cuz i was very extra there and was wondering if the "higher authorities" would recognise me..
erm.. and ya i think it was quite obvious there was this outsider there.. and apparently they realised it..
and my friends got like "reprimanded?"
like wth im i doing there???

we were a little upset.. bcuz then what? stone there for 2 hours meh??
so since the current batch ppl must stay, i went to play bball with crs..

the sun was scorching!!
we tried shooting 3 pointers..
and crs is juz chao tyco to chop a few lucky balls..

anw i think tj's toilet is much much nicer..
BIG and CLEAN and DRY...

after that i left.. and hey! i didn't get lost finding my way back!
ahah!

sigh.. balling session is too short la.. not active enough.. didn't sweat enough..
must play more next time k!

sports day [ONE]

2006-05-31T08:46:00.000-07:00

9 am... rach sc crs and i were suppose to meet up for a few games of table tennis..
some shit who kept reminding me to wake up on time OVERSLEPT! and TOOK an ENTIRE HOUR to get here when she stays only like 5 km away?!?
stupid shit..
sc overshot my busstop by like how far and walked all the way back and still reached much earlier la!
and rach was 1st when i expected her to be last! haha!

anw i have no choice but to succumb to the bad omen of sc's..
seriously la.. no matter how strong my aura was today.. hers overpowered mine..
the most only can win 1 set with her..
other then that, whoever partners sc will LOSE...
hahahaha!!

we left at 11 to meet mabu to lunch with rach went to meet her friend.

then we entered tj.. yea..
i cRaShEd tj!!
well, i didn't sneak in..
i didn't even try can.. i made a grand enterance by running in..
all thanks to some shit la.. wah lao..
if not probably may not get caught loh!
well anw the security guard caught me..and asked the BIG qnS "are u a student here?"
i guai guai de nod nod..
he asked me to read the sch rules..
i juz stared at some notice.. but i wasn't focusing on reading..
anw guard says that we muz abide the sch rules and wear sch based shirts..
no slippers too.. (i wore shoes hor)
then he said, "this time i let u off, next time i have to record ur name and show it to mr XXX "
hmm.. i was actually quite scared la.. but i just orh orh orh..
after that i asked crs.. who's mr XXX
it turned out to be the discipline master..
omG! then i was like.. oh no.. what if he catches me.. and i don't even realise it's him??!!
then it'll be quite erm....... funny?? ( considering it didn't happen. haha)

omg again

2006-05-30T07:30:00.000-07:00

er.. as i was changing the profile..
i came across another word which i didn't know..
i thought it was just some random nonsensical word..
but i checked it up anyhow.. and
OMG can..
the word is - dildos
which is : An object having the shape and often the appearance of an *censored* , used in sexual stimulation.

treat or trick?

2006-05-30T06:53:00.000-07:00

went to tp today to 'visit' yam. met small rach and ben too. =)
poly looks real fun.. ppl of all walks of life...
the sloppy, the funky, the bengy and the normal.. etc...

anw chionged home juz in time to make it to paya labar mrt to meet crs.
i told myself that i try my best to make it bcuz mabu's words were still close in my heart..
that day after semi-finals.. she msged me sth like this :
"i miss the time we were fighting in the same court, but on the same side"

i wanted to chong fong this gan jue.. so it mattered to me that i make it to pl in time..
and so i did...
crs and i sneaked to kfc while waiting for buz cuz she was late when we were already late!!
in the end still got 'caught' by the uncle.. he saw us crossing the road..
like late already still go buy food...

sardine packed in the car, we finally reached st margeret sch.
and stupid mountain dew spilled in my bag until my shirt was wet and i din realise all the entire time?!?!
well i hope it's juz the condensation...

anw we were suppose to play for mayflower against csc..
vanessa poo was there.. tot playing against her.. plus macey [lidat spell? correct me if im wrong?]
in the end poo was our side de, and macey din turn up!!!!

so there we're 3 of us.. den only can play 1 doubles..
and it was quite sick la.. cuz this means one of us has to sit out..
and that one was - me... =(

okay.. it sucks la.. to go all the way for erm.. nth!?!?!
well.. but it was my choice.. and crs could have chosen not to ask me..
but she did!

i wouldnt say i gained nth..
at least now i sorta know wad's going on.. all this mayflower inter club coms and stuff..
and realise old ppl play too..
and free food! haha.. opps..

anw i enjoyed the time with them..
even if i could only sit and watch.. but i'm happy im watching my friends....- my family play..
from the SAME SIDE... =))

anw on the way home.. interest dicovery made..
check out the pics!

OMG

2006-05-30T06:41:00.000-07:00

omg.. i didn't know orgasm meant lidat...
okay... my bad.. i am gonna change the profile..
thanks bao for the advice..
wy brought it up b4, but i didnt know what it meant!!

so wondering wad's the fuss about it, i went to check dictionary.com..
and this were the various results for orgasm :

the moment of most intense pleasure in sexual intercourse

erm, i decided that the others are too... *ahEM* for me to them here cuz it will dirty my blog.. so omg la..
i thought it was like spasm, which thereafter i checked the meaning again and the result :

an involuntary and abnormal contraction of muscle or muscle fibers or of a hollow organ (as an artery, the colon, or the esophagus) that consists largely of involuntary muscle fibers

wow.. haha okay how different.
well, on the bright side, i learnt 2 different words today!! =)

fun time

2006-05-29T08:34:00.000-07:00

went to watch da vinci code today with cl, buz, crs & sc.
was late... 10 mins only la!!
but damn, they start the show so fast...
sry ppl!! i made u all miss the murder!!!! =(( sry sry!!!

the show's actually quite nice mah..
but i think u would have to read the book 1st, if not there'll be many parts which would be incomprehendable or confusing...
then again, after u've read the bk, it's best to go into the theater with an open mind and try not to visualise too much to lower ur expectations..

even though i imagined some scenes differently, the buildings and structure awed me..
the pyramids... so nice! the churches and templers and stuff.. cool man..
and i thought silas.. though has scary eyes, looked quite nice.. instead of some scary freak which i thought... and he did look like a scary freak in the posters.
and sophie neveu is pretty too!!

okay, so after the show, on the way home, we made a last min decision to go to my house to play table tennis!!
uh oh, it was not until we reached eunos park when it suddenly dawned on me that the function room actually had a closure time?!!?
but i still went to ask the security guard anyway..
he said it's closed at 10, but he still let us have the key anyway cuz he said, "ay, but u bring ur friends here already... "
haha! thanks mr security guard!! so nice la!

so me,crs,buz and sc played tt..
laugh until throat pain liao ah...
damn funny, and damn fun!
was super high la!!
haha..

sc started off a bit shaky, but after tt she was smart!
keep giving mabu body shots! and mabu cannot take!
noe y???
cuz her owen keeps wanting to kick the ball!!!!!
muahahahahhaha!!!!!

and stupid sai only try to copy me bounce the ball on the table..
but cant bounce it..
lousy leh!

oh but i had a super fun time..
think u guys had too!!!
haah.. wednesday ah!!!!!!!
3rd set!!! stupid losers! juz scared to get trashed by me!!!!!

Tagboard replies

2006-05-28T09:47:00.000-07:00

[Devilic][tracy]
wad u all mean change blog arh? as in change the add rite?
i wanted to start a fresh skin and entry.. i wanted to keep the same add, but the system kinda din allow it??
i dun uds loh.. as in i changed the original one to some random link.. so i could use it for this new one.. but the system say's it's unavailable.. den i went back to the old blog and changed it back to the original add, and can loh!!?!?
-_-"

[Devilic]
no la.. 1stly, muz delete cuz it's spoiling our dhsbadz reputation.. and it's a unknown person!!! tt's wad im worried about.. and about the contents also.. it was scolding this "nicholas" which previously tagged some rubbish which i deleted as well..
dhsbadz... i wonder if it's our ppl la.. if it is.. den i can only link to crs.. cuz she saw the tag tt "nicholas" left.. but i dont think she'll tag back leh..

[tracy]
haha.. sry for bothering all of u to change link...
oh, marina kbox can so totally contain our whole class la!
they even got a room with pool table can?!?! but i wonder how to get tt room.. is it if we alot of ppl den they'll let us have tt room? or muz pay extra and how much??
cuz lidat hor, since not everybody sings... den can play pool also mah.. den could be quite hua suan depending on whether they charge and how much if they do.. haha
next class outing : marina square KBOX!!?!?!

[fujing]
hey! so ur saying my previous blog not nice?!?!?!
HMPH! angrY!!!!!
haha.. i like the layout and backgrd la.. but maybe all my entries messed it up.
as for the post prob.. see if i can post this post fully loh.. tt would ans ur qns... haha!

[shuzzie]
yea i watched!! it was an exciting match... did u? i think so rite.. i heard the entire sch compulsory to go down support???

Tagboard replies

2006-05-28T09:46:00.000-07:00

hmm.. i shall learn from sy and reply the tagboard msges here!!
haha..
hai i'm really such a copycat.. 1st i copy tracy's photoblog idea...
now i copy sy's reply idea...

haha... well.. i think my nature is juz to copy and copy and keep copying la..
go lect only copy blindly..
this entire month have juz been copying notes from my friends...
den go tuition i also dun uds wad teacher is talking and i juz keep copying..

haha.. and as fj and pw have realised..
i even copy wad i eat!!!!

i go to the canteen, sick of the food, always don't know what to eat.
as i stone around, some people will walk past me carrying a plate of food, and then i'll go...
"hmm tt's looks nice today... ok i shall get tt too. "
yup i depend on them to decide what to eat. ahha..

omg.. way off course..

okay back to the replying.

check this out!

2006-05-27T04:42:00.000-07:00

oh yea.. something wonderful accomplished.. finally..
after an entire day of fixing templates and choosing blogskins which fit...
FINALLY!!!!

yep.. i have a photoblog now..
now i can just upload all the pictures without having to tell long grandmother stories about the pictures which i prefer doing, if not post just the pictures won't tell the whole story...

yea.. u must be thinking "a picture paints a thousand words?"
nah! if not why do u think mona lisa is such a mysterious painting?!?! =.=" haha

oh the link to photoblog is just right there ---->
but i'll just put it here too..
http://lasting-memories-i-treasure.blogspot.com

so you guys can now get it straight from here..
much more convenient then i sending many many pics to each individual..
=)

throw away the old and bring in new life!

2006-05-27T03:32:00.000-07:00

it's time i moved on...
juz a quick recap on my previous endevours..

went for BIG WALK with my class, ended up only with my 2 buddies-fj and pw.. then they treat me to Marina Square Kbox which was luxurious!
3rd for A Div Nationals Badminton (for the "Nth" time, sad case... ) and i didnt get to play my last match of my phase in badminton life...
Soccer finals ended the term nicely with a BanG taking the championship.

right now, after a month of laggness, i haven't done anything to improve my situation. so it's just getting worst and worst.

hey friends, call me out to study can?? please?? or come my house!!!??